I really really think it is this subject that pulls my mood down the gutters. I've just rested for like 3 hours, escaping my destiny to try and dominate some formulas. Yet, the time has come for my conscience to come up to me and slap my face. So what to do? I turn towards BLOGGING! Haha. I don't care man. As the time slips pass me, with my stupid and idiotic conscience nudging at me, I am typing my thoughts out. Well, well.

Despite the unchangeable fact that I HAVE TO COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND THE SUBJECT, I still have the urge to throw it all away. I start to do silly silly things, I talk to myself(not reciting the formulas, but more of mumbling my grievances) and I turn towards the only source of comfort I can find at home : FOOD. Luckily, my mom has stocked up on some food supplies so that my brain still gets its nutrients. I even asked my mom whether I can have like chicken essence after prelim to prepare for the BIG A. Desperateness tugs at me man! If there is proven theory that pig's brains do help memory and increased mental fitness, I really won't mind eating it, despite the calories and also I do believe in my mum's cooking skills to make it taste like TOFU. Haha.

Actually I am a bit confused about the 'peak period' which teachers have mentioned. If we were to not peak before or during prelims, we can't really do well. But since I was doing badly all the time, does an improvement means my limit? Well if it so happens that I couldn't improve anymore after prelims, then isn't that bad? It isn't that I do not hope to improve but just that I don't expect a HUGE difference, maybe some results that will be able to soothe the nerves of parents and teachers and also my conscience. I cannot deny the fact that all I hope for this prelim is actually to pass everything. A pass means a lot since I don't really do so 'well'.

It is 30 mins pass my scheduled time to understand that dreadful and irritating and annoying and *fill in your own word* subject. And thus I shall end off having ranted something(although not enough). Study hard, everyone. =(

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