::ME::
In a place of voidness, I need colours. Blue, Red, Green.
May the colours tell of a story that will not let me regret.
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Tuesday, June 3, 2008
So slow yet so fast.
There are times when I hoped time could go by more quickly and then I stopped and think about it, took a step back, had a look on related matters and wonder, 'I don't seem to have enough time at all.'
I wanted to plan for my holidays and everything like how revision should go the 'perfect' way and how I will go complete the awaiting tasks and such. But I haven't really stick to the schedule, not one that is finalised. I still remebered what Sumathi's answer was when Mrs Logan asked her 'How do you study?' , to which the answer was 'I study by planning, but my method fail because I'm always planning to study.' I guess I wasn't any much better.
It's the middle of 2nd week of JUNE and I haven't got much(any) into that tiny brain of mine. Time passes by so fast I even wished I had super powers. Day-dreaming is a form of escapism. Haha. Next week, I'm up for NS check-up and months ago, I pictured a slimmer me inside a room of half naked guys and not to look like my current self. Yet it seems the reality is still there and I think I shall try and 'suck' in the 'un-see-ables'. I am doing my best this week: to go and exercise the whole week. Hopefully it will reduce some of those 'un-see-ables'.
In recent days, it's painful to see my brother at home and using the computer so carefreely as he only has to tackle his holiday homework, to which he'll purposely do in front of my parents to show his 'hardworking side'. Not that I'm any better by pretending to study by carrying books around and even trying to search for who-knows-what by flipping my notes. All for a facade, since from young, my parents don't believe anything till they have seen it, especially us studying. The much lesser stress he is experiencing and also the fact that his results is kinda undenialbly good makes me have the idea I'm wasting my time. Another thing I want to rant about is hard for me to type out and a bit groundless to complain about hence I shall just keep it to myself, unless you want to ask me. =)
Do you ever face situations where you have already moved on in life and then VOILA the conditions are just right if you hadn't. People often say have patience and in these situations, it's kinda true to a certain extent. Like the many many times I woke up early in the morning, expecting myself to lose some calories through running yet to find a grey sky partly covered in clouds. And so I went back to sleep, expecting to hear a light drizzle or heavier knocking my window. However after I woke up to which the time is already near noon, it's either the hot sun has dried up the rain in the ground or the clouds were part of the dream I was experiencing. And so I was cheated by the weather and well, I got some shut-eye. This is just one of the lightest of such situations which I do not want to face further in life. Who wants to live a life full of regrets?
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