::ME::
In a place of voidness, I need colours. Blue, Red, Green.
May the colours tell of a story that will not let me regret.
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Tuesday, May 13, 2008
HILO
I'm here again! Wasting my time. I think I rested too long. Since I came back, had my dinner watched 3 hours of TV programmes. Was couch-potatoing so much. It just felt there wasn't anything to do! But there's the econs time trial bugging me. Somehow, I can ignore responsibilities so damn well. Until it all comes back to haunt me that is - teachers chowing down my neck. I think I'm fit to live like a king. Heck, who wouldn't want to? But somehow, not that I think I AM ROYALTY, but just that I don't want to do work.
I thought if it was something I like to do, it might last me for quite some time. Say rearing sea-monkeys/ant farms/ cat/snake or all the other animals I might have interest in. Yet, with something so simple as the sea-monkey, I got bored of them even when they haven't even reached adulthood. Right now, the water is slowly evaporating off in my room. The water level is at half tank now. I'm afraid I would be those people who has short-lived attention on their interests. Hope I don't become one. Maybe I will try to hatch my sea-monkeys ONCE MORE. Haha.
My 2 dear seniors from drama has asked me to act in this alumni play they are trying to stage for cchms drama night. My first thoughts would be : What's the point? If they asked for some guidance and say directing or some games and such, maybe I would go and do it. But acting. Other than the fact that I have lost my minuscule confidence in acting, i see several justified reasons for me not to go back and ACT.
- Not that I look down upon the artistic appreciation of cchms students not to even mention ANY teacher, it's that I see no need in spending the effort to go all the way just to 'have some fun in acting once more'.
- Since the cuckoo principal decide to do a Russian Roulette on the CCA teachers, there's like a HUGE difference in the way teachers work and also since we LEFT so long ago, the new members haven't even heard of us.
- The following points would only apply to you both, especially xin yi ( always the commentative one). I would admit cchms EDS is NOTHING to be proud of( in recent years, I also highly doubt any achievements being remembered) and all achievements can be reached cause of all other factors but not the acting. Thus, I am SURE that you girls will have enough comments on everything you see,hear,feel,smell,taste in cchms.
- This is so straightforward but it's what I think. The fact that I just heard shannon is roped in too and of course yunita, I already see a perfect performing group. I see no need in asking for more people to try and blend in with the rest. And I seriously think I do not/will not/never click with shannon. Not to mention the MANY problems that will arise during the practice (if I ever go). I feel like a prop. It's the idea of just being there, but not to be in use.
*Phew* I feel so good after writing all these down. That's the benefit of blogging(without a care) that bloggers cannot deny. Haha. Another thing that I feel about recent happenings I heard here and there, it's that sometimes, I think when people speak their mind and post what they really feel, it doesn't satisfy all people. The thing is, some people will be affected in a bad way no matter what. I feel maybe, when one really sees something that disgusts/anger/embarrass/irritate himself, there will be 2 responses. To keep quiet about it or to voice out in return. I belong to the first option. It's just that, I think this kind of behaviour should be accepted because people are really just saying what they truly feel. It isn't a fault to place the blame. So, I hope people around me won't get so agitated over what other people say. Afterall like old saying goes, ' It's their mouth(hands that type) anyway. '
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