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In a place of voidness, I need colours. Blue, Red, Green.
May the colours tell of a story that will not let me regret.
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Sunday, May 31, 2009
8 days left. And I hope I won't ever step foot on that island anymore!!! It's such a weird feeling to feel cut off from the world out there. Week by week pass by so quickly what I thought were new movies weren't showing in the cinemas anymore. Each weekend I see new copies of 8 days which I can't be bothered to read anymore. As compared to last time, where I would have engulf the entire magazine within hours of purchase. Synopses and all.
I feel a change. A change for the better or for the worse. I do not know. But I feel a change in behaviour, in mindset, in me. Something's different, that I'm sure. Certain times in camp, I would reflect upon the word I said, the things I did and the way I felt. I wondered if I truly behaved the same as I did in the past. Many said that NS would change a man. Afterall, it is a new environment, I interact with new people and I'm presented with new situations. New experiences and new emotions with fill me, but will they change me? I'm afraid they did. I still can't grasp the change in me, but I hope it's not for the worse. If so, do tell me. It's always harder to observe oneself than to observe others.
I need new stuff in my life. Haha. New clothes, new shoes, new bag and new CASH. I want to see the number rising exponentially. Seriously, I'm considering investments. Haha. Maybe play with stocks or something, the idea of earning money with your butt resting comfortably is so attractive! I would also want to be my own boss, to start an income without the need for degrees or any other pieces of paper. It has always been my wish to be an entrepreneur but to be a successful one, it just seems to tedious. Bahh.. I complete NS first then see how. I am already in my 'heck-care' mode. I take training like meals, I take pain like candy. Life is just so sweet.
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