::ME::
In a place of voidness, I need colours. Blue, Red, Green.
May the colours tell of a story that will not let me regret.
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Monday, May 19, 2008
BIG BIG 21.
I have a lot of things to talk about despite the so-many-last-minute-homework I have produced with all the neglection. Firstly, I realised I didn't really type a 'last CCA meeting' post or such. Did I even mention anything like that? NOPE. And so I won't touch on it either. There's too many negative things that I do not want to think about. By negative, I do not mean the film cause we use DSLR. Haha!!!
P.S There's a confession. I wouldn't want to say it in school or anywhere until I've graduated. It puts ME in danger.
Secondly, I am finding the silhouette of my dad in me. Shucks, that's another negative thing. Ok. Done. I wouldn't want to evaluate further.
Next. This sunday(yesterday), my aunt held this huge celebration for my cousin who is the eldest at my mum's side. He's 21 years old already. Through that day alone, I have a lot of things to say so I shall summarised most of it.
I found out 21 years old is an age where many families celebrate large-scale then. I wouldn't blame my aunt for doing so for her eldest child. But what about the remaining 2? Yes, he is the most 'successful' in everything you can name. And the others cant match up but I feel that is not even a 'considering factor' to hold a party. And her 2nd son is the same age as me. Let's wait and see. And the question is posed to my mum : What about me? I'm the 2nd eldest. A firm no. I wouldn't want it either. Not with my family that is. I would much prefer to hang out late and chill and do stupid things before I am fully recognised as an adult(not by my parents). But I can imagine my mum calling me like at 9pm asking me to go home early when I haven't even had half the fun normal people are suppose to. Haiz. Another negative outlook.
And then came a bombshell I had to take a few moments to digest. The first OPEN BGR at my mum's side!!! Of course with the male lead. However, the female lead is in China for some exchange programme and so I didn't have a look. It is officially known because my grandpa caught them in the act at Bugis as they were going to play computer or such I heard(kinda boring but it's what my cousin do best). And so the grapevine is vibrant with the news and questions like "when are you introducing her to us lah?" are shot at my cousin. Poor him. A burning question in my head yet I have too much shame to ask. So do not think any further.
Negative thoughts in me.
Another negative negative negative event that is happening is all the natural diasters that is like happening in China and Myanmar. Kudos to Myanmar for having MORE problems with the relief effort even when they are in peril. Hope their economy will turn out fine. And a round of applause to the heroes in China who are doing their best to save their comrades(now, why am I comfortably sitting in my room using the luxuriant technology and feeling sympathetic for them?). A lot of views but none of them is good. Read today's papers about this female policewoman who is breast-feeding nine babies(none hers). That is a hero. And then I imagined the future and if I were one of the child when I grow up. Wow. Talk about the bonding!
I like today, except for the night like now as I have to cope with the guilt I'm feeling for tomorrow's lessons. If only everyday was a holiday. Sometimes, I would rather be born in those days where our world was not as developed as now.
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