Sunday, January 27, 2008
It was just a DREAM...
I had a very strange dream, where I can't believe the people involved, the things that happened and the feeling I felt.
Why was it you? I don't recall any interactions with you for these past few days. Not even a thought of you appeared in my mind. Was it my subconscious? Was it what I really wanted? I would hope it really happened, and that you were the one. However, I know it's going to be difficult or maybe impossible. It wasn't you. It was the 'you' that I wanted, the 'perfect you'. Yet I still can't believe it was carved out of your image.
What made that happen? Too much tv may have affected my thinking. I think it might even have made my desires stronger. Seeing how the characters react, may have sown that seed into me, and now, it has sprouted. It may be the happy ending/scenario I wanted. Everything was going so smoothly - that's why it's a dream.
It was a very pleasant feeling, reaching to the bottom of my heart and dwelling there as I type. It somehow spreads throughout the entire body. Since the moment the interaction began, I had this feeling. Is this the feeling I lacked? The first time I felt such way, not even in the past, where I claimed I had. Maybe, those in the past were just immature thinkings. Maybe, this is the REAL feeling. I don't want it to go away, I hope it stays. Yet, only in dreams will it reappear.
Fund-raising later. I hope I'm paired with jiemin, the remaining fellow classmate in the same group. (Yes, I am still sad about it. Sad, not angry. It'll be over.) Chinatown. It'll be bustlng with people buying CNY goods. Oh, maybe we can go there to buy decorations for the class! Haha. Yeap! Making the best out of everything! And what a combination, class rep with treasurer! Haha. All it lacks is the one that's in charge of decorating the board. My parents said they wanted to come and see me, ore like double-check. So I told them to at least donate $10 if they want to see me. Haha. Maybe I should have asked for more. LOL. Chinatown got lots of things to EAT! Haha.
ENFP - we have to talk about it.
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