::ME::
In a place of voidness, I need colours. Blue, Red, Green.
May the colours tell of a story that will not let me regret.
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Saturday, November 3, 2007
Nostalgic
OP is finally over. I don't want to talk about it. But after that day, Kang Li and I accompanied yini to THE HEEREN. Haha. Never been there. I am a town GUY. LOL. She wanted to change the slipper in which the size was too big. However, she didn't have the receipt so cannot change lor. But she had a 'reward' she keep saying one of the guy at New Urban Male is cute. Up till now I still don't know which one she was talking about. But one thing for sure. The guys at that shop are really the good-lookers. Haha. Well, they get gym membership, and many many more benefits that helps to improve their outer apearances. Haiz. I want to go gym also, but so malu. Like. aiya. Haha. I wanted to run this morning. Felt the sun was too strong. Then 'postpone' it to like 2. But right now, the sky's a bit gloomy. And I see dark clouds. The actual reason right, is I'm too lazy. Haha.
I am so bored right now. I just don't want to touch my I & R. I don't want to run. I don't want to play games. I don't want to revise. I don't want to go out to buy food. I don't want to bathe. Yet. I don't want to activate my sweeping robot. I don't want to blog actually but there's nothing to do so here I am. What else do I not want? Hmm. See how many things I could have done in this wasted time? Haha. That's me, protagonist, slacker, PIG, LAZYPIG, dreamer ...... etc. I don't want to put myself down too much. Haha. Ooh. The sun's out again. But so strong. I don't want to get heatstroke. Haha. I don't want to go for any reunion. I don't want to go back into the past.
I just want to look forward into the future.
Just now there were 3 boys playing beneath my block at the void deck. Wonder what they can play. Wonder why I don't have such close friends. Wonder why neighbours are called neighbours when I don't really know about them. Wonder what I played when I was their age. They have stop. Is it time to go home already? It's 1.20pm now. Maybe it's for lunch. And what did I have? Instant noodles. Haha.
Sadly, a year has passed since I came to MJC. New people I met. New subjects I took. New tasks at hand. New teachers, new environment, new feelings. A newer me? I doubt so. Maybe it's just that I have let a little bit more of myself out of my own world. To tell the truth, I have not been 100% true to anyone in my life. Not even myself. I hardly think there's anyone who do that. Maybe when we were so young we do not know what's lies and facade. Time passes by so fast. And I'm going to be 18 in like 3 months time. No hints here. I can drink alcohol, I can smoke, I can learn how to drive, I can watch M18, I can stay out late cause the police can't force me to go home and I can go clubbing. Can I really do all those that I can?
It's time like this when I start to think, seriously. When I reflect and ponder.
I am not the best there can be. But I try to be the best that I can be.
Accept me for who I am, for you are not worthy for me to change.
Emotion is what makes us humans, or we are no difference from any machine.
The weather now i just right. I shall go running now. so here's THE END.
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